Today's Wedding

Today's Wedding was awesome. I enjoyed every bit of it and thought of doing my wedding soon but I'm scared, I don't wish to marry, not when I have had some bad experience from it. The church was filled up, it was indeed so glorious. The couple actually dated for ten years. Wow, like ten years, such a long time. I was just wondering in-between the ten years, wasn't there any breakup? I so much admired today's wedding but marriage is not my thing except the guy is a good gentleman that is tested and trusted. I grew up to see marriage as a hell, a bondage and the woman a slave to the husband. I grew up seeing enduring marriages rather than marriages built with love. The trauma is too much for me now as an adult. Let marriage rest first, though I might give it a second thought. I want to build love, I want to love and be loved not so that I would get married someday but to just LOVE.